I truly believe there is no worse heart-pain as a parent than not being able to take care of your child. Whatever the reason… whether they are sick, you are sick, you are apart or things are just bigger than you can handle… nothing hurts as much as not being able to care for your child. At least that’s how I feel.
Even worse than that, for me, was the knowledge that I couldn’t take care of Bjørn when he needed me. I couldn’t pick him up, hold him, or care for him because my body wouldn’t let me, and I felt so lost… so helpless. We happened to be at my parents house when I got sick, and I am so grateful that they were there for us. I don’t know what I would have done if we had been at home alone!