divorce does not define me

 

DIVORCED.

A scary word and a freeing word all in the same breath.

I cried when I signed the final papers yesterday.  Ten years of my life, gone in a flash.  Seemingly all for nothing.

DONE.

And then I steadied myself, breathed in deep, lungs filling slowly until they almost hurt, and sighed a long, fresh-start sigh.

Peace.  That is what I feel right now.

PEACE.

He signed the papers.  I signed the papers.  The lawyer and judge signed the papers.  It’s all over.

DIVORCED.

A new status now defines me.  A new box to check on the countless forms that ask for your ‘marital status’.  I am no longer ‘Married’, I am not even ‘Single’…  I am Divorced.

I AM DIVORCED.

The more I type that word, see that word, say that word, the weirder it feels.

I am not my experiences.  I am not my situation.  I am not my ‘marital status’.  I am me.

I am the girl God knew before I ever took my first breath on this earth, and I am the one He has big plans for.

What are those plans?

I wish I knew.  But I’m okay with not knowing.  I’m okay.

I AM AT PEACE.

I am not an ‘-ed’ word.  I am not an anomaly or a broken, ruined person.  I am not his ex.

I am not a lesser version of myself.  I am not damaged goods.  I am me.

And I am exactly who God created me to be.  I am done defining myself through the lens of this world.

I AM DONE.

I am a Divorced, Jesus-loving, Mom, Sister, Daughter, Niece, Cousin & Friend.

I am worthy of love, I am capable of love, and I am not broken.  I am not defective.  I am not damaged.

I AM DIVORCED.

That has changed me.  But it will not define me.

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Now you know where I’ve been this past year – those of you who have been following my journey, following this blog, and waiting patiently for me to show my face again.  I am here.  I am re-learning how to be me.

I am so thankful for each and every one of you.  I am so thankful for your love, and concern, your patience and your encouragement through this darkest season of my life so far.

I am OK.  I really am.

What does the future look like for this blog?  What does the future look like for my passions and hobbies and for all of you?  I’m not sure.

I’m not sure where my heart is pulling me right now, but I do know that I need a safe place to share my heart and I’m hoping you all will give me grace to use this space right here.

I will share recipes when they are on my heart, but I will also share my stories, my struggles, my triumphs and my joys.

Is that ok?  Should I step over someplace new and create a new space for all of that, leaving this blog as is?  Even if that means I’m not here much?  That would be okay with me.  I can do that.

I’d love your input friends.  This space is just as much yours as it is mine, and I want it to continue to be a place you want to come.  Share your hearts with me friends.

I’m listening.

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Instant Pot Black Bean & Ham Soup

Rich, hearty, incredibly flavorful… and start to finish in under an hour?

Yep!  This delicious soup tastes like it has been simmering ALL day, and yet it’s quick and easy to throw together in a pinch!

Full of beans, veggies, ham and more flavor than you will believe can come out of a quick-cooked soup, this is a meal you need to try and SOON!

INSTANT POT Black Bean & Ham Soup! Easy, FAST and Delicious!! | www.sweetannas.com

Hey friend!!  I’m so glad you’re back!  I’ve got a great recipe for you today, AND an even better kitchen MUST-HAVE!

Have you gotten your hands on an Instant Pot yet?  If you haven’t, you MUST.  It will be your new best friend!  Especially for summer, when you don’t want to heat up your house with the stove or oven on.  (OR, for summer camping…  The Instant Pot is the perfect companion for your camper!)

6qt Instant Pot

Quick Instant Pot schpiel (is that a word?!)…  It is a multi-function cooker that slow cooks, sautés, steams, warms and is a rice cooker, yogurt maker, and most importantly – a pressure cooker!  Yep, that thing Grandma used to use on her stove, only MUCH more user-friendly!

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Marshmallow Peanut Butter Swirl Brownies

Ooey, gooey, rich and chocolatey….  full of marshmallows, chocolate chips and a luscious swirl of peanut butter!  Gluten free, or gluten-FULL, you can’t go wrong with these over-the-top, but still incredibly simple, brownies!  Try them soon, you won’t regret it!

Marshmallow Peanut Butter Swirl MADE-FROM-SCRATCH Brownies! (Gluten Free OR Gluten Full!) | sweetannas.com

Marshmallow Peanut Butter Swirl MADE-FROM-SCRATCH Brownies! (Gluten Free OR Gluten Full!) | sweetannas.com

Hi friends!  I’m glad you stopped by on this beautiful day!  Are you a brownie fan like I am?  Are you always thinking you should try new things, but never really wanting to step away from your favorites?

Well, this is the recipe for you!  It’s everything you love about your favorite Made-From-Scratch-Brownies (Gluten Free if you’d like!), kicked up a notch with sweet marshmallows & salty peanut butter. 

A winning combination, for sure!

Want to try this simple, crowd-pleasing recipe??  Click here!

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