I miss eating at a restaurant sitting down. With no interruptions… no Cheerios on the floor… and no need to factor in the cost of a babysitter.
I miss traveling. I miss seeing a great deal on an all-inclusive 3 night stay in the Bahamas for $100 and actually booking it and running away for a bit. With no months/years of planning, preparing and again… babysitters.
I miss coffee shops. I get plenty of coffee (Who am I kidding? I may as well have an IV hooked up to my arm!) but I miss sitting in a coffee shop. With no toddler spilling his hot chocolate all over the place and tearing the pages of my magazine. I miss people-watching and enjoying being silent, just because.
I miss going to a park to lay on a blanket in the sun, reading a book until I fall asleep. I miss quietly enjoying the trees and clouds and the cool breeze across my face… without someone pulling my hair, and again… ripping the pages in my book.
I miss closing my eyes. Resting. Napping. Thinking extra hard about something. Blinking. Eye closing is not an advisable feat with toddlers and babies all around you. Something happens… every. time.
I miss going to sleep when I want to. Reading until I can’t keep my eyes open anymore… not caring when I fall asleep, because it really doesn’t matter how tired I am tomorrow. Nobody’s life is at stake.
But someday I will have all of that again. I will go to nice restaurants, and coffee shops… I will travel and I will read uninterrupted…
But you know what?
I will miss of all this even more.
I will miss the hair pulling and the page ripping.
I will miss the hot chocolate spills and the Cheerios crumbs.
I will miss the sweet baby needing me even when I’m tired.
I will miss the sticky, slobbery kisses… the toddler hugs and the “Hi Mommy! Yuh You!!”…
I will miss this… all of this… SO MUCH.