the home birth of Maren Ree…

My sweet, beautiful, joy-bringing Baby Girl is one year old today!

Born at 12:39am, her birth was the most difficult and life-changing event of my life, so far.  WORTH IT.

I’ve tried to keep this as PG as possible (all pics are appropriate, FYI!) but if birth makes you squeamish…  feel free to scroll down quickly to some of those yummy recipes down below!

For those of you who are interested:  Here is Maren’s Home Birth Story.  One year ago today.

Maren Ree was born Tuesday July 24th, 2012 at 12:39am.  Weighing 6lbs 8oz and just 18.5inches long.

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31 days of letters (day 7) a letter to my daughter… when you’re a teenager…

You are kind.  You are smart.  You are important.  (If you’ve never read or seen The Help, you need to go do that right now). 

You are so much more than our broken world leads you to believe.  You are more than just beautiful. More than just a pretty face on a pretty frame.  You are a princess.

God’s princess.  As a child of the King, you are a princess, and as such, you are a valuable, precious treasure to Him and all of us who love you.

You are special.  And you are perfect, just the way you are.

Your heart matters more than your jeans size.  Your kindess matters more than your hair.  Your generosity matters more than your style.

I am so proud of you, sweet daughter friend.  I am so incredibly blessed to be your mom and I am honored to walk this tough road of moving from childhood to adulthood with you.

I know you probably think I’m old and oblivious, but I promise you that I know what it’s like to be a teenager.  I know what it’s like to love and lose and to laugh and hurt.

I know what it’s like to feel broken, and like noone could ever understand what you are feeling.  I have been there, and I will always be here for you.

You are my heart, my daughter, and I have been praying for you since long before you were ever born.

I love you, sweetheart.

a new normal…

Trying to find a new normal these days is taking longer than I had hoped.

Well, actually, the kids and I are slowly adjusting as expected, but ‘me time’ has completely disappeared.

I’m pretty sure I haven’t even shaved my legs since Maren was born because I haven’t had time to take a long enough shower for that.  (Sorry if that just grossed you out…  but hey, at least I am taking a shower every day!  That’s a feat in itself with 3 littles underfoot!)

What I miss most though, is my kitchen, and this blog.  I miss writing.  SO much.  I haven’t even had enough time to write out Maren’s birth story yet…  and she’s over 7 weeks old!

I miss baking, and cooking, and creating new things in my favorite place…  my kitchen.

There are just so many distractions these days and time is so limited.  Even if I get a chance to bake something, I can’t focus enough to do anything right unless I am making something I could make in my sleep (brownies, homemade mac & cheese, soup, etc.).

And you know what?  I miss you guys! 

I miss sharing my little space on the internet with you.  My little kitchen counter, where I often picture us sitting and chatting over a cup a coffee and a sweet new treat, whatever may be coming out of the oven at that moment.

I really do love and appreciate all of you.  I can’t even express how much it means to me to know you are out there visiting with me, and that you care enough to come say hi once in a while.

Especially in this foggy-haze of newborn-land, and if you’ve been here before you know, it can be so lonely sometimes.  So beautiful, but so isolated.

I just can’t wait to find a groove again in our new normal, and to have more treats for you to try.

Thanks for being so patient with me, friends.  I miss you too!