I am Mom.

I have always wanted kids.  Ever since I was a little girl, when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, the answer was always… a mom.  “I want to be a mom.”

As I grew, I learned that I shouldn’t answer the question that way and I would make up some quick flippant response, but in my heart I always cried out “All I really want is to be a mom!”

I dreamt of my babies, my children, even to the extreme of dreams so vivid of pregnancy (and oddly enough, miscarriage) that I would wake up weeping in my bed as a teenager.  I never understood my longings, but I knew they were there.  And I believe they were, and are, from God.


But somewhere along this beautiful and very difficult journey of becoming exactly what I have always wanted, dreamed of, longed for…  a seed of discontent was planted.

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31 days of letters (day 17) a letter to my boys…

I’m leaving you this weekend.  Taking your sister and running away with Grandma for a girls’ weekend.

I know I may seem a little too excited, and maybe even not sad enough to be leaving you…

And I’m sorry.

I wish life was roses for all of us, all the time.  But you guys know as well as I do that it’s not.

And so, I’m running away.

I’m running away, and I don’t even really think you guys will miss me, and I promise I will come back a better mom, a better me, for you!

(At least for a few days!)  :o)

I love you all so much!

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how to make a toasted coconut baby

What did that title actually make you think you were coming here to read?

Some fancy new coconut dessert?

A dutch baby laced with toasted coconut maybe?

Nope!  This is actually nothing of the sort.

I recently discovered that Haakon, my youngest, has inherited the eczema that plagues my husband’s family.

It has just shown up on his skin in the last week or so, but it is running rampant and getting worse every day.

The back of his knees, his torso, his arms and legs…  Pretty much his whole body is affected in some way or another.

I am not ready to start trying out strong creams on him yet though, so we are starting with the basics…

Keeping his skin as moisturized, protected and healthy as possible.

This is where the Toasted Coconut Baby part comes in.

Every night, after his bath and before his jammies, I slather Haakon from head to toe with virgin coconut oil

and he smells amazing.

Seriously… amazing.

I thought I had a problem with wanting to ‘eat my babies up’ before, but now…

Now he smells exactly like a big pile of perfectly toasted coconut flakes, and he makes me drool.

And I may have licked his arm once or twice last night.  May have.  :o)

Here’s hoping this helps!

At least we know it’s not hurting, and it makes for the most delicious smelling baby you’ve ever met!!